Get ready for adrenaline. On my first hunt, I shot a 6 point buck at 100 yards out through a "V" in the treeline (McMinn County, Tenn.). I was thinking - "heck,if it aint go horns, I aint shooting." After about one and a half hours, I saw movement to my right about120 yards out. Heck - a deer - aint never seen one in the woods before so that was freakout factor number one. Then, WTH it has horns! Alright, shaking, "am I going to get a good look at this deer?" Probably not - trees everywhere. Keep looking - He's angling away from me and I might not have a shot period. No - there's a spot he should walk into- focus on that spot - brown shoulder - trigger pull - deer bounds away - "did I hit the buck?" Radio bro in law - "I THINK I shot a deer." He says hang on, keep an eye on which way he went and don't come out of the stand. See the bro in law looking around - he finds the deer and radios that it aint got any horns. Dang. Then, I walk up and see the horns. Cool. Typical bro in law. Adrenaline - High five - then let the gutting begin. Freakout factor number two. Only wretched a couple of times. Then off to the deer processing facility - a deer Aushchwitz. Interesting personnel - Freakout factor number three.
I get it now - so will you when you make your first kill. It is what it is - embrace it and understand that up until 100 years ago or less, man survived by hunting for thousands of years. You will wind up as a more well-rounded guy and, in my opinion, you will have advanced to a point closer to what you were designed to be.