Wish I could help you to feel better about this, but, if it helps, I know the feeling. I have a son and daughter and four grandchildren living 2500 miles away, and it stinks. I try to see them as often as time and money permit, but those grandchildren hardly know me. I can also relate to the driving as I have a daughter living nearby who has to drive about 35 miles to work every day over a mountain pass. That scares the crap out of me during winter, especially!