As an old pastor told me, "There ain't no Lone Ranger Christians!"
We are made for community and fellowship.
Yes when I go way out in a stand and sit there all day I do get feelings to bail.
But my question to myself is where you gonna go? And as you Tator, said, I don't have a religion I have a personal relationship with my Lord and Savoir Jesus Christ. Fall and fail, yep I think thats my battle cry but the Voice of Truth tells me different. I can't go to Canada and drink directly out of the lake or sit in a stand and not appreciate The Lord.
But I still don't miss "church" on Sunday morning, it's just what I do!
PS You are in prayer my brother